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The Soundtrack of Failure :: The Soundtrack of The End

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These are the songs I don't let myself listen to. But these are the songs that sound like what everything feels like now. This one is the saddest fucking thing in the entire fucking world: "I loved the way you looked at me... the way you made me feel... when we were alone." "The best I've felt in my whole life is when I was in your hands..." I shared this one early on, but don't know if you listened to it. "I want you and not somebody else..." "Get away from me, darling... I'll get high hopes Do I keep my head high or keep my head low?" I may have to change my previous statement. I think this one may be the saddest fucking thing in the entire universe. Some stupid fuck I once knew actually said he always thought of this as a happy song. You have to be epically fucking dense to think anything about this is happy. And never in a million years did I think we would end up here, end up like the couple i

After the Wine

I'm not sure if you still come here since I said I was done posting. Maybe I'll text you tomorrow to tell you this is here. I'm sure you'll wake up tomorrow and regret that you reached out to me while you were tipsy, but it's okay. I'm very worried about you, but it's okay. I have no clear idea where you are mentally and emotionally right now, but maybe I do have a small clue. I get that you're lost and confused and all I can say is the same things I've been saying for 5 months: I care about you. You're important to me (and the kids are important to me). I've heard you and I understand what you need from someone. I'm only asking the opportunity to show you these things. I'm not concerned about sweeping you off your feet romantically (although I can do that (again) if you'd like, in addition to the things I'm really focused on with "us")... my only concern right now is demonstrating to you that I can provi