"Weak People Never Finish Anything" :: "Well, It's Finished Now"

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I don't know if this will be the last, but there isn't much point in saying anything else. It would all just be waves and waves of anger akin to what I'm feeling at this moment.

You just needlessly, callously informed me that you're already seeing someone else.

Wow.

That sure didn't take long. 3 Months from saying you would spend the rest of your life with me to swallowing some other random dude's come. Nice.

I really don't understand why you would tell me that. Jesus, how fucking heartless and insensitive are you? Do you really think I fucking needed to know that?

I swear you're not even close to the person I thought you were all this time. It was always a cute joke when we would say it during our time together, but now... seriously "I don't even know you any more".

I hope it felt good to hurt me like that.

All throughout this people have been asking if there was someone else and I told them "Nah, no way"... but they kept pointing out that you skated away as if you already had something lined up. Guess we'll never know.

I can't believe how upset I am.

Here I am, still destroyed over the loss of us, still trying to make it through each day, seeing 2 therapists and taking anti-depressants for the first time in years, still wondering if there is any way, still wondering if there is any hope...

Meanwhile you're already fucking someone else.

Wow.

Did I make a HUGE mistake in trusting you.

I wish I had never fucking met you.

And I hope you end up miserable.

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