Nothing Is Ever Going to Be as Good as It Was

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The more time I spend and the more people I meet and the more things I do with them the more I realize (what I already knew would be the case)... nothing is ever going to be as good as it was with us.

I really hope you're having a great time (that's sarcasm, BTW), because I'm not.

Nothing but disappointments at every turn.

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